LoveGIRL.

Monday, August 30, 2004

I am dying..
I thought I had recover from my cough
but....
it came back!!!
Argh...
I'm coughing like hell..
I'm stressed up...
on the other hand,
I'm sick..
I'll be driven to my grave sooner or later..

I had straighten out my thoughts..
I am going to do something..
To satisfy myself and also to inquire,
it concerns my happiness..
I dont care what the consequences are,
be it good or bad,
I just wanna know..

9:04 PM sprinklinq love Y

Sunday, August 29, 2004

If you love something, let it go...
If it comes back to you, its yours...
If it doesn't then it never was...

I'll let nature takes its course
and see what will happen..
Forcing myself does not solve the problem,
same goes for hidding away from it..
I'm sick and tired of excuses, explanations,
especially EMPTY promises..
I dont wish to be hurt again..

10:22 PM sprinklinq love Y

If there is just one thing i can do,it is just to hate love..
for love has broken my heart and my pride.
Love has got me blinded..
and love is the reason why i never wanna go on any longer.
Love has made me suffer all these years...
and love has brought me NOTHINg but resentment.
Love has made me do things I regretted.
Love has brought much grief and hurt in my heart.
Love has taught me how to hate..
and love has taught me nothing but heartbreak.
Love has destroyed my world for numerous rejections I had to face.
Love has made me fall for the wrong kind...
and love and fate had been cruel.
Love has brought me much tears..
and love has brought me much loneliness..
So please love,
I don't need you,
i don't want you,
for i hate you,
for i resent you.
Please stop me from loving and please stop me from being loved...

What a poem, expressed what I'm feeling these few days..
My life really suck! How exactly am I suppose to live my life? I really wonder...
I thought I had found somebody who can really make me happy but . . . I really wonder...
I thought life could be simple... I really wonder...
I thought about myself, am I in the wrong??? I really wonder...
Who can answer my doubts? I really wonder...

1:22 AM sprinklinq love Y

Friday, August 27, 2004

Why is my life so full of ups and downs..???

I just dont understand why some people can be very happy with their lives while I have to suffer! I've had enough trouble from my family who keeps depending on me for their living! I thought that being in a relationship could lighten my burden but out of my expectation, I have to face more problems...
I dont know whether is it me who is having problem or . . .

I really wish to just lead a normal life and live happily. Is it wrong??? I felt like heaven is playing pranks on me, sometimes make me feel very happy, sometimes make me feel very sad and when I say sad, I mean really really sad!
I dont even know what I can expect from my own life.. Everything is damn unpredictable...

8:16 PM sprinklinq love Y

Friday, August 20, 2004

I'm so tired...

After school, I went to play badminton with Joyce,Angie and Siti at 2pm. We played until 4.30pm. After that we went to meet Veron and went to play pool until 7.30pm. We went to Simei for our dinner.. After dinner, we saw many people line dancing in front of Eastpoint. Fabian was dancing with them, he daringly went into the group and dance together! It was so embarassing.Joyce dared him to dance Para Para and he really did it.. He dance in a very funny way.. cos it was his first time!

11:34 PM sprinklinq love Y

Monday, August 16, 2004

Hao Tong Ku Ar..

School resumes today, I'm still unwell so I've been coughing and passing my viruses to the people around me.Make so much noise so more.. Haiz.. On Saturday I became SANTA CLAUS because of my cough I keep shouting HO! HO! HO!.. then on Sunday, SANTA CLAUS plays trumpet because of my flu keep blowing my nose!..
I got back 2 of my term test papers today and I am rather satisfied with my results. Haiz.. still need to go to school tomorrow. Someone is not feeling well today, got stomachache.. Siu bian chi.. Must eat more sandwhich... (",)

7:46 PM sprinklinq love Y

Sunday, August 15, 2004

HAO TONG KU AR...

I'm still not feeling well after a few days. The day before I became 'SANTA CLAUS'!! Keep shouting HO! HO! HO! (due to my cough)... Today, 'SANTA CLAUS' had to blow trumpet! (due to my flu)... Very terrible... I dont know how much longer it will take to cure.. Actually I was suppose to go watch fireworks together with Joyce, Veron and Fabian( i think), but too bad, I cant go to far places in this condition.. Anyway its crowded from what I heard from Joyce..
Whole day, I spent my time sitting on my bed with a box of tissue and a plastic bag on my left and the remote control on my hand... So boring..
Today is the last day of my term break. Tomorrow have to go back to school. Haiz.. So boring..
But I can spread my germs to the whole school.. haha.. very fun..

10:21 PM sprinklinq love Y

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Wo sheng bin! :-(

I woke up early at 11 am today.I was not feeling that well. I had a bath then start doing housework. I had to change my bedsheet,cook chicken rice,clean the whole house(vacuum) and lastly wash the toilet! It was already around 3pm that I finish doing all the work. I had not taken my lunch nor breakfast. I was feeling weak and I cannot take it anymore.I felt very tired, my entire body was aching that after I took my bath, I straightaway lie on my bed. That time, my body started to shiver and my throat felt nauseuous.I felt helpless..I felt scared,there's nobody for me to turn to at that point of time.
I just lie on my bed and look through the messages I received.Not long after, my father came home from work. He wanted to eat so I joined in, I didnt eat the chicken rice as I dont have the appetite to eat rice. So I ate a few slices of bread with curry. My body was burning hot but at the same time I'm shivering.. After I ate, I swallowed panadol and lie on my bed..However, I cant sleep because I was feeling terrible. So I went to my father's room and my father massage my head and body.After that I felt better.I guess I was very tired..Now I'm feeling much much better.I hate it when I fall ill..The feeling is terrible..

9:54 PM sprinklinq love Y

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

I'm damn tired!!

I woke up at 12pm today but my sleep was disrupted causing me to wake up and then go back to sleep a few times. Thanks to my mother and my brother! Quarrell early in the morning.. Had my breakfast cum lunch before going out to meet Joyce and Siti to do our project!
Joyce is forever late.. They make me jealous today, I'm broke and they went to eat KFC.. Sob Sob..I end up watching them eat!! Haha..Teribble feeling..Nvm..After that we discussed our project and then we went to the library. Joyce keep yawning in the library! Around 5pm, Joyce went to have dinner with Veron, Siti and I went home. Soon after I reach home, I had my dinner with my parents. After watching TV, my mother asked me to accompany her visit my grandma whose not feeling well. I went home around 10pm.Very tiring.. Tomorrow I'm still going out. Wow, this week very tiring week..

12:26 AM sprinklinq love Y

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

THIS IS HOME...TRULY...WHERE I KNOW I MUST BE... .... .... ....

Today has been a very significant day for me. Its Singapore's National Day and this very day is my first time celebrating it at National Stadium. I got to be part of them and sing along to the songs... The show was great, the fireworks was beautiful and the performances were fantastic... A once in a lifetime chance! I am so fortunate and its all thanks to my Darling!!!
What a day it has been, since early in the morning I had to run here and there. In the morning I went to my grandmother's house. After that I had to carry a LOAD of food home! They were damn heavy and worse still I had to walk home in the hot weather. However, I got the chance to watch several TV shows before meeting Joyce at 4pm. I am rather misfortunate today, as when I was about to get out of my house, Channel 8 shows a movie and my favourite actress was in it! What a luck... So I quickly grab a tape and record it. By the time I got it recorded, I realised that I'm going to be late so I had to run again..In the end, I'm right on time but Joyce's late. Haha..
After the NDP, I stayed for the party at the National Stadium. It's actually nothing much, people just get down to the field and dance with the performers. The songs that they played were the popular songs like 'The Rasmus's - in the shadow',linkin park,evanescence,etc.. The party was spoilt because someone's bladder was about to burst! Haha.. Met TL for dinner, but eventually I ended up eating ALONE!!! One person already had dinner, the other one is on 'diet'! Haha... Nvm, the food was delicious so I dont care.. Haha..After dinner, we went home.. Does it sounds like I had a fun time? I dont really feel so..

1:59 AM sprinklinq love Y

Sunday, August 08, 2004

Jiu Ming Ar...

Help!!! Today has been a very boring day for me. How I wish I could kill myself. I stayed at home the whole day, and it's been hell! I basically wasted my whole afternoon doing nothing just letting the time passes by. Every second seems like a year. What a pity, I wish to go out but there's no where I could go, I'm broke! Anyway, I'm lazy to go out too...Hee.. On the other hand, if I go out today, there's a big posibility that I'm grounded tmr!

Luckily tmr i have somewhere to go. If not I think I'm going to kill myself! Later I'm going to watch TV again. So boring... Boring day...Very boring...

8:59 PM sprinklinq love Y

Saturday, August 07, 2004

YEAH...

Today is my last paper for the Term Test. I'm so happy... However, my day was spoilt by my mother! I had to go home straight after the paper supposingly to reformat my brother's computer which was affected by virus the day before. I had an argument with her, I dont really know how to reformat a computer and there is no 100% guarantee that it might go smoothly. She rather leave the reformatting to the technicians. So, in the end, the technician took up the job and would repair my brother's computer!Whatever...save me all the troubles...

After that, I went to Veron's house. We spent half an hour at her house together with Joyce. Around 3.40pm, we went to Whitesand and take Ken's(Veron's mao) food. We were suppose to meet Fabian and TianLong at Pavilion BK at 4pm but we were late by 10 mins... Hee.. Then we played pool until around 6pm. When for our dinner at BK then went shopping, took quite a long time to choose the blouse! Veron die die also dont want to wear pink! Haha...

After purchasing a blouse, we went to look for a VCD. After that, we called Lynette to come down and talk.. We stayed until around 9 sth then we went home... Someone very stubborn, refused to go home even though he looks like he's dying!!! My darling, next time be more careful...Especially in the dark!!!

10:45 PM sprinklinq love Y

Thursday, August 05, 2004

Hey there...

I am finally released from the stressed cell! I just closed my books. I'm having my Telecommunication System test tmr. Frankly speaking, this is the only subject that I concentrate most while studying. The other subject I'm quite relaxed... I'm tired now, been studying since morning. Going to have an early night as tmr is a morning paper.

9:38 PM sprinklinq love Y

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Haiz...

What a day it has been!! I woke up early at 8am just to revise on my ROSW. My paper starts at 12.30pm to 2.00pm. I went out for school quite early cos I'm afraid that I would be late. Met TL at mushroom then go to IT school for the paper.

The paper was damn! The first question was very difficult!! Decided not to waste my time and move on to do other questions first. I just calculate the answer and hand up, give up, no use sitting in the LT but cant think of any other solutions!!!

After paper, met Joyce and Veron for lunch at BK. Headed for pavilion and played pool until 5pm. Joyce was almost half dead, she was feeling very tired. So we when home earlier to rest. I heard that my brother is planning to go KL with his team next month! I'm jealous... Why does he get to go to KL while i dont...Sob sob...

7:47 PM sprinklinq love Y

Monday, August 02, 2004

Wei Wei...

Sat for my MOBCOMP paper just now. Almost late for paper, i woke up at 8am! I'm suppose to come out of my house ard that time... Anyway the paper is ok ok... I think i can pass but not score.I'm satisfied! After the paper had breakfast + lunch with TL at BK in between TM and CS. Went home to study for my ROSW paper tmr. Fortunately the paper is held in the afternoon. I can wake up late and need not rush.

9:54 PM sprinklinq love Y

Sunday, August 01, 2004

Arghh...

Haizz... tmr is my first Term test paper. I somehow prepared for it le but no confidence. Just try my best tmr. Anyway, i spent most of my time watching tv today. Woke up early ard 9am, had my breakfast, watched tv until 1pm. Open up my book and study until 6pm. Then come online until 7pm. Offline for 2 hours watched 'Witness to prosecution'. Then online again.. going to have an early night, tmr morning paper! 9am.. wish me luck... :-(

9:20 PM sprinklinq love Y