Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Why am I always Unhappy.. Its Not Like I Want to be Unhappy!!!
Why is it always me who is unhappy? cant anyone let me be happy? why do i always have to be upset and face disappointments.. i dont want.. many times already.. i'm sick of it.. and everytime same resolution.. an apology. i mean what else can i expect or receive except for an apology. rather than accepting, i'd rather make myself disappear. i feel better, all alone. no one to make me unhappy, nobody to make me angry. i seriously think i deserve a little respect! i feel so controlled.. i want to make my own decision and i expect ppl to respect that... but no. No one listens.. am i to blame for all these unhappiness? i am never going to appear in this world anymore besides important school matters. Dont bother to sms me or call me anymore. That applies to all of you. I seriousy need the time to relax myself so please respect my decision. I would truly be grateful to all of u to just let me have the time all to myself. Wish you all have a nice holiday! Happy New Year in advanced.
Why is it always me who is unhappy? cant anyone let me be happy? why do i always have to be upset and face disappointments.. i dont want.. many times already.. i'm sick of it.. and everytime same resolution.. an apology. i mean what else can i expect or receive except for an apology. rather than accepting, i'd rather make myself disappear. i feel better, all alone. no one to make me unhappy, nobody to make me angry. i seriously think i deserve a little respect! i feel so controlled.. i want to make my own decision and i expect ppl to respect that... but no. No one listens.. am i to blame for all these unhappiness? i am never going to appear in this world anymore besides important school matters. Dont bother to sms me or call me anymore. That applies to all of you. I seriousy need the time to relax myself so please respect my decision. I would truly be grateful to all of u to just let me have the time all to myself. Wish you all have a nice holiday! Happy New Year in advanced.
12:17 AM sprinklinq love Y
Monday, December 05, 2005
Very Upset!!
hmmm... very sad. Got back my quiz marks and not really happy with it while everyone around me was happy, i sat there alone crying! Ppl around me said nvm its ok,only a few marks, never fail what so ever. But they dont know how important it was to me. What make things worse was when i am already very upset, someone keep mentioning things like wah, i anyhow do also can get correct, what tian cai, what so ever.. I mean i know that person is very happy but it is as if that person cannot see and feel for me. I already very upset about my marks and he gave me those remarks, i feel so despised lor. Then i thought about the other person, went to study with me, but keep saying dont know dont know. then in the end get high marks also. i feel so stupid, why those people never study can get high marks, say dont know also can get high marks, i study so hard, so stupid get such marks.. thinking about this really makes me cry and super duper disappointed with myself... what wrong did i do to deserve this kind of treatment?
ppl will say that i am a pessimist but if you ppl are in my shoes, i believe you will feel the way i feel. i get so emotional about this because i am no doubt a competitive person but i dont blame anyone cos its my own fault. i have to blame myself for not putting in more effort. but then i was really upset cos at the time i needed support, no one was present yet again. one dont care, one dont know do what.. keep asking me u ok or not? wont help, only making me feel worse.. do sth instead of asking me are u ok or not.. i really want to thank joyce, i think only she knows how to make me feel better..
Hopefully there wont be any next time.. really cannot take it.. very very upset!!
hmmm... very sad. Got back my quiz marks and not really happy with it while everyone around me was happy, i sat there alone crying! Ppl around me said nvm its ok,only a few marks, never fail what so ever. But they dont know how important it was to me. What make things worse was when i am already very upset, someone keep mentioning things like wah, i anyhow do also can get correct, what tian cai, what so ever.. I mean i know that person is very happy but it is as if that person cannot see and feel for me. I already very upset about my marks and he gave me those remarks, i feel so despised lor. Then i thought about the other person, went to study with me, but keep saying dont know dont know. then in the end get high marks also. i feel so stupid, why those people never study can get high marks, say dont know also can get high marks, i study so hard, so stupid get such marks.. thinking about this really makes me cry and super duper disappointed with myself... what wrong did i do to deserve this kind of treatment?
ppl will say that i am a pessimist but if you ppl are in my shoes, i believe you will feel the way i feel. i get so emotional about this because i am no doubt a competitive person but i dont blame anyone cos its my own fault. i have to blame myself for not putting in more effort. but then i was really upset cos at the time i needed support, no one was present yet again. one dont care, one dont know do what.. keep asking me u ok or not? wont help, only making me feel worse.. do sth instead of asking me are u ok or not.. i really want to thank joyce, i think only she knows how to make me feel better..
Hopefully there wont be any next time.. really cannot take it.. very very upset!!
11:35 PM sprinklinq love Y
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